Monday, my employer paid me for almost half the hours worked up to then without pay, but as I sit here at the desk at The Granite Guy, I wish I felt better than I feel. I’m still no closer to owning the truck. He promised Saturday to bring in the title, but having failed to do that since, I don’t expect to be the necessary paperwork involved with the transfer of title to be completed this week. Even so, the longer I DON’T own the truck, the longer I don’t have to pay for the insurance. I stopped driving the Blue Goose in April, and ever since have had no vehicle insurance oblications for the first tme since turning about 18.
What George paid me Monday allowed me to pay more than $550 in overdue water and electric bills, and I paid my second and last real estate taxes for this year, all before arriving at work this morning. That’s a load off, but it doesn’t seem like a load off. If I were anywhere but behind THIS desk . . . . . well ya know, burglars can’t be chosers, and I feel I’m breaking into the sanctity of a lot of principals held dear for a lot of my life.
I spoke with a friend about my plight at the big railroad consolidation town hall meeting last night, and to her credit, she didn’t wish me well and lots of luck. That’s why I believe something good may come from that conversation.
How I can think of myself as having so much to offer an employer in one heartbeat and in the next heartbeat I realize how removed from the dimension of LIFE I am in believing it.
But I’m hanging with The Granite Guy for now, for the hell of it.
It’s amazing how much more I accomplished in the years when I had no consistent employer. But you know? Life is not about getting things done. Life is about working. Getting things done is gravy.
For years when my mother lived in Tavares, Florida after retiring, selling the family home and moving South where all her childhood and early adulthood family and friends still lived, she would ask me to write her more often. I LOVE writing. Loved it then. I love and loved being sociable. But since most of my life — from her retirement in 1979 to her demise 10 years later — was a lot like it is today, I didn’t write. Three times a year I called her and traded pleasantries with her. Christmas, Mother’s Day and her birthday, August 19.
Honey & Quinine should be the story of a successful journalist, poet, photographer and aviation historian, and it bothers the bejeebers out of me that it is not. When I can share more than plastic pleasantries and polite platitudes, more than wearisome woe . . . .
. . . . . but for now this blog is going on hiatus.
Live long . . . . . . . and proper.